Winter is deffinatley coming! I'm currently in my bed, listening to the rain and Mayday Parade and on facebook. Inbetween all this im watching a little Gossip Girl, and honestly i couldnt be happier!
I LOVE WINTER ♥

Oh how i love one tree hill ♥

Happy Easter!

You confuse me, you really do. Not only are you a friend, but your a liar, your a hypocrite and your a bitch. Summarises you perfectly, i've known you a long time but these days i feel as though i hardly know you at all. Its confusing to even be your friend anymore, there are always some type of strings that are attached. I wish there wasnt, but believe me there is plenty! Its hard to know how your feeling towards other people. Its like one minute you can hate someone yet the next you are their bestfriend. I dont know how this works but in your world it works pretty damn smoothly. For all i know this could just be an act, but for all i know you could hate me. It kills me inside to think like this but this is reality. This is fact, not fiction. This is life. And right now my life is confused with fact and fiction. Yeah i know i have to face it that not everyone likes me, but i was hoping that i could be set on the idea that all my 'friends' do. You make my life right now a living hell. Just give me some sort of clarification, i just need something that can reassure me.

I know, its been a while.
I just wanted to recognize this song because it is possibly the best song out right now, well in my opinion.
Listen to it :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dyYWCUUnJU0
(L!)

DUDE!

Okay scratch all that, apparently were good? What the hell! I'm so flipen confused right now!

Holy Crap!
This is ridiculous, nothing happened. Well something did but it didnt mean anything! Now hes cut, hes my bestfriend and i love him to death. But i told no one, i didnt know he would wanna know or even care about this kind of stuff. If i did i wouldve told him everything. I'm scared, his basically like a brother and has been for ages now, but i wouldve told him what happened if it mattered! But it didnt mattter! I'm scared, i'm worried, i'm sorry! I LOVE YOU AND TRUST YOU WITH EVERYTHING! please just forgive me. please

Its about time!

Finally after all this, your beginning to grow up and open up! You never use to tell me anything. These holidays did you good i guess, youve learnt what you have to do in order to keep your friends. And they might stick around now, now that your not a heartless bitch. I didnt wanna not be friends but at one stage i didnt think i could be cause you turned into a generally bad person and i didnt like it! Not many people did, it was heartbraking but also eye-opening. Because everyone could see the type of person you obviously have always wanted to be. Now you've changed for the better and im happy maybe this time you'll stick around and be my friend. And not change into the person you were becoming again, well thats what im hoping!

'Sick Little Games'

The only reason you were my friend was because you had me convinced that you were a great, friendly person. But now the reason you arent my friend is because you had convinced me that you were a great, friendly person but all of that was a lie. Sure everyone lies but yours seem to take the cake, theyre not little. The difference between me and you is that you use people and i sure as hell dont. I thought you were different, but just like everyone else you tricked me and i fell for it. But now everyone has caught up with your sick little games and well no one really likes you anymore. And luckily i figured out your games way before you could suck me into the games you play. You treat me like an idiot, you may have fooled others but did you have me fooled? Nah, you may have thought you did but i guess i just played along. You couldnt fool me cause i noticed you have been using people for a while now and i guess i got used to your games. I put up with it for a while, not anymore though. I guess your donzooo :)

This Situation.

Its crap! You are well were one of my bestfriends till recently. Now i have no idea what to think or do about you! Its been driving me mad. Your there for me one second and gone the next, its bullcrap. And i hate you for it, but then your there again and i honestly dont know whether your a good friend, a great friend or just another one of those girls who uses people. Im completly puzzled about the way your treating me and others and also im puzzled about why your being like this all of a sudden! Your confusing, at times annoying and most of all a bitch :) You lie to people, you backstabb people and most of all you use them and when your finished with them dump em' like theyre dirt. Im not another one of those people who you can walk all over, im not happy with you or the way you treat people. Do this again and ill beat your scrony little ass down! And you know i stick to my word. I dont care whether i like the person you use next, i will and mark my words i will kick your ass and stick up for them just like i shouldve done for myself! Its too bad i cant take my own advice cause if i did you would be out of my life for good by now. It hurts to think i thought you could change and be a better person but yet again you proved me wrong, your still the same heartless bitch that i always knew you were. I just couldnt bring myself to notice that i was right. And now that i have i will be the person who sticks up to you no matter what. Make one false move and you'll pay :) Thats all i wanted to say. You heartless bitch.

The Reason / Hoobastank.

I'm not a perfect person There's many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found out a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear I've found out a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over newand the reason is You and the reason is You and the reason is You and the reason is You I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found out a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you.

You may think i copied jess or w.e but she actually stole this from me :)

Unsure..

I dont know why but i miss you so much more then i probobly should. Does this mean something or is it just me being me. I'm unsure what this means but i hope it doesnt mean anything because then all i have to begin my year with is unhappiness. And that deffinatley isnt something i want!

2010.

I can just see 2010 as being a year filled with tears, smiles and hurt. Summerised in one word drama. I dont know why this is the way i feel but i do, i guess its because an extra like 100 kids who will be there to help create the drama. Although i know some of them, i dont know how well ill get along with most of them. This will be quite the experience the first couple weeks, maybe months but i just hope that everything will go well and everyone will get along. But i have alot of doubts about that. I really just dont know what i should expect of this year.



I really do hope that i have a great year and make heaps of new friends, but im also hoping to have no dramas what-so-ever this year. And hoping that is like me and a celebrity getting together, yeah thats not gonna happen so i also hope no know that this year will not be drama free. Infact its probobly going to be the complete opposite. Nothings perfect and this year surely isnt gonna be an exception.



I wont be surprised if by the end of this year i have new friends and new enemies. Im not saying thats what i hope will happen but if it does i'll be saying i told you so! I just have this feeling that i cant shake off, which is that this year could change everything. Hopefully for the better but i really do not know what i should expect of this year. But yeah i hope the year will prove me wrong but i just dont know.